And please dont think that I have spelled happiness the wrong way. Even if I wanted to, the Word editor usually points out the mistakes. Its just that after seeing Will Smith in the movie, I like to spell happiness like happyness.
Truth and happiness are two things which I am after these days. I am trying to lreach the balance where I get both of them without sacrificing another. COntemplating has led me no where now for two months. It was supposed to be a project visit but now it has turned out to be the biggest dilemma for me.
Sometimes the obvious is not so obvious and these days even the choices have become difficult to make. Playing several roles at the same time and have to do justice to each role is proving too much. Soul and happiness are consituted as summation of different parts to bring out the whole. There is no absolute happiness in existence but just different parts/lives/moments coming together to form your happiness circle. Now most people would find it easy to maximize one part and still keep the circle intact. But I am finding that difficult to do.
It is getting increasing difficult to decide what is the right path and what is the correct action? Is it ok to give some pain to one to give happiness to other? Is it ok to be selfish about yourself? How to live life - one moment at a time OR looking at the horizon? And inspite of choosing the way to live, what to do in those moments - think about yourself or give happiness to others? I mean it has always been a balancing act for me and I appreciate those people for whom life has been kinder in giving the options to choose from.
I am really in need of some help in deciding waht to do. Divine intervention would also help but till then I think its me alone who has to think and decide.
